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The Beagle For Beauty Monthly - August



“People say sometimes that it must’ve been hard, growing up without a father figure . . . No, by the time I was six years old, I had already witnessed what a man should be, how a man should act. I saw it in my own momma, who put on a man’s britches and worked in the field all day, then iron mountains of clothes at night, for pocket change.”


- Rick Bragg, All Over But The Shoutin’


When Jesus saw her, he called her over. “Woman, you’re free!” He laid hands on her and suddenly she was standing straight and tall, giving glory to God.


- Jesus, Luke 13 in The Message


Hello dear friends,

How are you today? I’m pondering your lives as I type, where you might be reading this, in a cafe, on the couch while the kids play outside, parked in the car filling a quiet moment, tucked away over a tasty treat? Maybe you’re carrying a deep sadness no one but God knows about? I’m so sorry, just know you're not alone. I pray blessings for you, comfort andsolace, friendship and a love that sees you. I pray for beauty, creativity, the discovery of new delights and the recovery of forgotten ones. I hope this issue brings some pleasure as you peruse my humble offerings.


My heart is heavy at the news headlines, especially today as I write. It is overwhelming. It can make what I do here seem so very insignificant and yet on the other side of the same coin, all the more important.


Here I am, creating, curating, writing. I don’t write because I have answers, I write because I have questions.


This week in my quiet time, I wrote a prayer to God.


That was enough.


I read a comment on Instagram this morning:


We are not alone in our sorrows. The very heart of Christ is sorrowing with us at what we see. Indeed, all creation groans. Even groans are prayers. As we embrace our sorrow, as we share and bear witness to the truth of the grief, we place an arm around each other. The brokenness of this world is screaming at us from every corner but if we can look for the beauty, the world we imagine, the world to come, hope will rise up and anchor our storm tossed souls.

My deep belief is that beauty has a story to tell, one that was meant by God to speak to us of his character and reality, meant to grip our failing hands with hope. To believe the truth that beauty tells: this is a great struggle from the depths of our grief. To trust the hope it teaches us to hunger toward: this is our fierce battle. To craft the world it helps us to imagine: this is our creative, death-defying work. Beauty and brokenness told me two different stories about the world. I believe that Beauty told true.” - Sarah Clarkson, This Beautiful Truth This is my death-defying work. Beauty is telling a story which my failing hands grip with hope.


Maranatha!


This month:

  • Still Life: Liberty! The Peace of Wild Things and Self-Portrait

  • Book: All Over But The Shoutin’, So Good They Can’t Ignore You, Love Set You Going, Help, I’m Drowning!

  • Music: Yehezkel Raz + BFB monthly Spotify playlist

  • Recipe: Spaghetti Meatballs, Bruschetta

  • Film: Bright Star, Suffragette

  • Poem: The Peace of Wild Things by Wendell Berry

  • Artist: Loré Pemberton

  • Podcast: Deep Questions with Cal Newport

  • Snaps from home: My candid monthly adventures

Did you know I link every book, film, recipe etc in the Beagle? Where you see words underlined, simply

click the link.

The Beagle is a living thing, it seems to evolve with each edition, forming within my hands like clay turning upon the potter’s wheel.


I’d love to hear your feedback. What do you enjoy most? What would you not miss? Is it too long, too full? Would you like more photography and behind the scenes? More literature and art focus and less of the other things such as recipes and snapshots? Please do drop me a line, I want to encourage you in the ways you need not with just the ideas I have, of which there are many!


It’s always fun seeing the Beagle take shape as I bring my month together. I shoot from instinct not always discerning ahead of time what it is I’m wanting to express, yet a thread begins to form, its theme gradually emerges like an island cloaked in fog as we approach by sail boat.


I’ve just enjoyed a lovely few days with my mum visiting. We had mostly fine weather thankfully, we pottered in the garden, sat at cafes over creamy flat whites and ordered spring bulbs from her magazine. We drove to Oxford and browsed the bric-a-brac at the local market, walked in nearby woodland and ate creamy soft-serve in waffle cones.


We talked about my childhood, her childhood, and realised how broken we all are.


For the moment we see in part. We only perceive our own story, our individual brokenness. But this is only a fraction of the picture. For the time being it’s as if we look through a dim glass, a disfigured image before us. We strain to see.


Some conversations are hard, but they help. They help us understand more of ourselves and more of others.


We sat around the fire the other night in the garden and talked for hours. We could have taken off our shoes in that place, it became hallowed as we put on each other’s shoes instead. Different shoe sizes are often awkward and uncomfortable but you can make them work.



Reading Rick Bragg’s book (see below) has given me a fresh perspective on my mum, the things she went through as a child and as a single parent. We didn’t have a lot growing up, life wasn’t throwing lemons, we were thrust into the orchard.

But I remember many moments of laughter and creative homemade fun. My sister and I used to watch a TV show called Horse In The House so it seemed only natural to try that with our pony. We didn’t have much to eat sometimes but that pony did, that little firecracker kept us from years of teen trouble. On our council estate we’d play '99 Not Out' until it was too dark to see and the rumble in our tummy sent us home.

At school I’d stand in the lunch queue, my secondhand over-sized jumper hanging past my fingers, waiting for my name to be ticked off the free meals list, I didn’t feel embarrassed at the time. It was there I met two dear friends who’d dream with me of escape and fame. We’d bunk off school and choreograph dances in my kitchen with the curtains closed so the school officers couldn’t see us. We didn’t realise they don’t go around peering in windows. It was habit to hide behind the couch and speak in hushed tones at the knock of the door, not just because of truancy officers but also debt collectors.

Some years, one week at a time, mum would pay off a Christmas hamper. A pound here, some pennies there, which the debt man didn’t get. Each December the glory of rarely touched treasure would arrive. My sister and I would tear into that box like frenzied hounds on a rabbit, while mum did her best to fend us off to little avail. That hamper would be gone within a couple of days, still weeks out from Christmas, until only pickles and canned meat remained. But oh the feast! For so many years I carried a chip on my shoulder. I grew, it grew. I’d feed that chip until it swelled to a mountain at my back, casting a shadow over much of the good. There was much good.

You do not have to sit outside in the dark. If, however, you want to look at the stars, you will find that darkness is required. The stars neither require it not demand it. — Anne Dillard



Self Portrait

In a previous life I was a portrait photographer under the mentorship of industry leader and innovator Sue Bryce. It was Sue who taught me about posing and lighting, about the way a woman’s body can be captured beautifully without photoshopping, and about self-worth. What makes Sue different from everyone else is her attention to the smallest details such as hand posing. Hands and fingers make a significant impact on a composition, for better or worse. I used to tell clients, women, mums, “Be in the picture”. So often we shrink away and hide ourselves from view but one day your kids are going to look back on their life and want to see you in it. They won’t care what size you were, whether you were on trend, they’ll want to see your smile and face and have it among their memories.



After reading Cal Newport’s book So Good They Can’t Ignore You, I’m intentionally pushing myself beyond my comfort levels, hence the self portrait. This project was about learning more about my lighting capabilities, gear limitations and editing skills. It was fun but uncomfortable, just what you need in order to learn and grow.



Cal’s book is debunking the hypothesis that in order to be happy in your work you simply need to follow your passion. He argues that SKILLS TRUMP PASSION IN THE QUEST FOR WORK YOU LOVE and why “follow your passion” might just be terrible advice. I agree with him. Cal writes: ”Compelling careers often have complex origins that reject the simple idea that all you have to do is to follow your passion.” ”The more experience we have the more likely we’ll be to enjoy our work”. The myth of the secret hidden passion waiting dormantly to be discovered is just that, a myth. What we really seek is:

  • Autonomy - the feeling of being in control

  • Competence - the feeling of knowing what we’re doing, being good at it

  • Relatedness - connection with others

Where did this hypothesis of follow your passion originate? Cal traces it back to a book published in 1970 by Richard Bolles, What Color Is Your Parachute? Basically put, the author encourages readers to figure out what it is you like to do, then go find a place to do it. The optimism of the message caught on. Parachute, helped introduce the baby boom generation to this passion-centric take on career. This has led to a big downward trend in job satisfaction and life happiness according to the 2010 Conference Board survey. The more we focus on loving what we do, the less we end up loving it. From Cal’s extensive studies and interviews he suggests that what we need to focus on instead of seeking a magic bullet, is building career capital. Job satisfaction and therefore happiness in life can be achieved through deliberate practice. Investment into skills and building a tool box of rare and valuable knowledge, makes us more likely to achieve the 3 point desires we have - Autonomy, Competence and Relatedness. When we invest into ourselves, stretch and grow, we build career capital and our lives feel more like they mean something. We feel valued. Whether a butcher, baker, candlestick maker, we can feel deep worth within that role. I don’t know about you but I always found the pressure of finding that one right thing, being in your calling, terrifying and paralysing. There’s no joy to be found in feeling you’re always wasting yourself. Much better to simply have a go at things, try stuff out, make mistakes and learn.


Still Life

Liberty!


Why does the caged bird sing? I once had that question lodged in my mind like an imperceptible splinter. The answer finally came to me after a year or so, because she knows she has wings.


Hers was a song of lament, of longing, of calling to the winds to carry her from that place. This was during a long period of time spent in a spiritually abusive environment. ‘Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty’, it didn’t occur to my naive heart that my soul was thirsting for true freedom.


The growth of the flowers cannot be halted, the bird sits perched triumphant atop its prison and the passage of time moves on.

Do you see the two little visitors who came in on the roses?



Have you ever felt a peace, a comfort, when you’re coming into yourself? Like when you get home from a formal event, and get to strip out of your uncomfortable dress clothes into something more ‘you’.

I felt more of a shift towards a what it means to be a mother when reading Rick Bragg’s book ‘All Over But The Shoutin’’. It is without exaggeration that I say no book has effected me so deeply in a very, very long time. Rick wrote this memoir as a witness to his mother’s love and sacrifice. He didn’t have a father’s example in his life but she was all the role model he needed. "Anyone could tell it, anyone who had a momma who went eighteen years without a new dress so that her sons could have school clothes, who picked cotton in other people’s fields and ironed other people’s clothes and cleaned the mess in other peoples houses, so that her children didn’t have to live on welfare alone, so that one of them could climb up her backbone and escape the poverty and hopelessness that rings them, free and clean”. Rick reminds us so beautifully and heart wrenchingly what families are all about. I am staggered at the silent resilience of his mother, the stoicism and bare bones grit. This is a woman unlikely to ask herself how satisfied she is with life, what passion she should be pursuing. Every breath she breathed was an effort to see her children stand on her shoulders and launch off to more spacious opportunities, while she was content to hold her ground. "Everybody loves their momma – there is nothing even remotely unique in that even in this dysfunctional world we live in. But not everybody owes their momma so much as us”. I cannot do justice to this book here, to attempt to would be like holding a candle to the sun. Rick’s story is haunting, harrowing and glorious. His writing honest, poetic and sharpened. You could cut yourself on the turn of each page. I’m greedy to read more of his crafted words, I don’t think there’s many that can turn a phrase like him. ”This story is important only to me and a few people who lived it, people with my last name. I tell it because there should be a record of my momma’s sacrifice even if it means unleashing ghosts, because it is one of the few ways I can think of – beyond financing her new false teeth and making sure the rest of her life is without the deprivations of her past – to repay her for all the suffering and indignity she absorbed for us, for me. And I tell it because I can, because it is how I earn my paycheck, now at the New York Times, before at so many other places, telling stories. It is easy to tell a stranger’s story; I didn’t know if I had the guts to tell my own.”


Still Life

The Peace of Wild Things




Poetry

The Peace of Wild Things by Wendell Berry When despair for the world grows in me and I wake in the night at the least sound in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be, I go and lie down where the wood drake rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds. I come into the peace of wild things who do not tax their lives with forethought of grief. I come into the presence of still water. And I feel above me the day-blind stars waiting with their light. For a time I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.